Take Me Back

When it happened I was elevated, headed towards cloud 9

Then I received a call. It was my sister. I picked up. She told me the news.

You were stuck on a hospital bed for almost a week inching closer to the end surrounded by family.

Everyone was informed, helping though power lines, or directly. All except for me. I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye for the second time, Now its too late.

Im sorry I couldn’t be there for you, its the worst thing I’ve had to endure.

I can’t take another heartbreak

Since you’ve left my heart’s gone weak

My biggest regret is not chasing you

My greatest fear is getting over you

I wish i was better at loving you

I will never forget you, im still in love with the thought of you

I MISS YOU!!

You gave many life lessons

I remember the smell of your daily perfume, mandarin oranges, plum, clover, coriander, pepper, bay leaf

Just like that the memories start rolling in

I miss your smile, it wasn’t a full set of teeth but you sure made me envious for that lot

I miss rolling over and seeing the sparkles glistening in your eyes

I miss our morning talks

I miss our daily walks

I miss being your apprentice in the kitchen for all meals

I miss being the center of attention with you

I’m Not the same without you

I lost my confidence, I lost the will to prove myself to the bystanders

I forgot how warm your hugs are

I miss the affection in your voice, sometimes you’ll get too happy and your voice will crack or screech

I don’t feel like i belong here without you

You’ll be disappointed with some of my decisions

You would’ve loved my wife to the point you would’ve spoiled her

You would hate how your kids turned out

I wish i could’ve seen where you grew up like we talked about

I wish I could’ve seen the farm

I wish I could tell you all about my life experiences thus far

I wish i could turn back the time to cuddle with you one more time. I wish I could’ve watched the rain fall with you while we read for hours longer on your last night in the states

Don’t forget me, No matter how far apart we are

I miss the feeling of you missing me, I miss the feelings of you scolding me

Please look down on me I need the guidance, Im not ready to let go

Don’t worry, I’ll remind the groundhog to recognize his shadow on your birthdays so we can spend more time together on that upcoming snow day

Whenever im lost in public, i see your face everywhere

I’ll love you Forever & Always