Omission

I literally disengaged from the world.

I was scared 

Thought i wanted to be more

More then i could be in my current life

So

I didn’t try

I shyed away and created a gap within myself that i could accept

I just stayed in the house

I lied in bed and dreaded to be awake because things were simpler in my mind

I created a story for everyone

But that was just it,

In my mind

None of it was real

Okay well there’s what happened

And what didn’t happen

That is an unfinished discussion

And it wasn’t because i was scared of risking  it all

But it came to a point where my life was solely dependent upon another

It was exhausting and embarrassing